.tied up.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

departure.

mummy left.
monday morning, 170105, 0100, changi airport.
the last time i saw her.
170105 0003
she calls back everyday.
didn't get to speak to her on monday night though.
but i did speak to her today.
she sounded sad.
i could hear her voice.
shaky. lonely.
her first question, "do you miss mummy?"
my answer, "of course i do."
slowly, as we spoke,
i could feel her.
tears welled up in her eyes.
i could sense it.
i could picture her face.
i was silent. she was silent.
i told her about the flight.
we couldn't book it.
i couldn't get back in time.
the only date available was the 15th.
and i can't skip that many days of school.
anyhow.
mummy said it was alright, since she hasn't really settled down yet.
she still needed to get a new apartment and all.
so for now, it's march holidays.
dad's leaving on the 29th.
feels weird.
i can sense the emptiness already.
weird.
not used to it.
oh well.
i guess it's a time for me to grow up.
learn. be independent.
manage my stuff.

[ Jude whispered ][ 11:59 PM ]

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